I'm still not ready to do this, but I guess it might help.
After 28 years of marriage, my parents are getting a divorce. I can hardly type right now due to the grief. I found out on Friday night and my world has been upside down since. My parents- they're amazing. They are both wonderful Christian people and I am so proud to be their daughter. My brother and I have always known this day would come. We have never seen our parents, 'in love'. It's always been as if they were just 'getting through it'. They are nothing alike. I mean really. They don't have anything in common and I sometimes think they don't even speak the same language.
As I can't help but think of the days that lie ahead for my family, I cry and cry over things that haven't even happened yet. We all go to the same church, and all sit together. Now what? We go to Mazzios every Sunday after church. Now what? We have family night with my father in law every week. Now what? My nephew Colt hasn't even been out with the family yet! Saylor will be born in two and a half months! What about birthdays, holidays, family camping trips that we've already planned!? What in the world are we going to do!? I went through Matt's parents divorce about a year after we got married. I honestly thought that my life could never get that hard and bad again. But, here I am. I have always taken so much pride in the fact that my parents were still married after so long. I never wanted my brother and I to be one of 'those kids'. The children of a broken family.
My mom and dad have tried to make it work for so long. They've gone to counseling more times than I can count. I am worried over what they're going to do without each other. Where will they live? What will they do all the time, alone?
I HATE DIVORCE!!!!!! I have seen what it did to Matt's family and so many families around me.
My parents and I have said for a long time now, "Aren't we blessed?! We are all together, all healthy, all go to church together, live close to each other, and have so much happiness!" Now it's gone.
Please pray for my family. What a difficult road lies before us.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
More than I can Handle.
Posted by Jessi at 10:45 AM
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Your family is in my prayers!! I know exactly how all of this feels! It's a horrible feeling!
I'm at a total loss of words, this is shocking!
Growing up with divorced parents wasn't a big deal to me because I was so young when they divorced that I didn't know any different.
As an adult 'child' seeing your parents in this situation would be so hard!
Your family will be in my prayers!
Jessi, I'm so sorry to hear this. You and your parents will be in our prayers.
Thanks everyone! The days get easier...and harder actually. I never know what I'm going to feel like! I'm getting through though!
Jessi - I was just catching up on blogs - and yours is a sad one, one that brings tears to my eyes. My parents were married for 25 yrs. before they divorced. It is hard to watch and hard to think about what will happen from here. If you need to talk, I am here for you, if you need anything please let me know. I will be praying for you and your family.
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